Embracing the Fear Within: A Journey of Reconnection and Renewal
As the creator of the Soulful Guidance Oracle Deck and Guidebook, I have poured my heart and soul into this project. It has been a journey of deep introspection, creativity, and solitude. But now, as I prepare to share my creation with the world, I find myself grappling with a mix of emotions—excitement and, yes, a touch of fear.
This morning, I am meeting a dear friend I have not seen since spring. She has been a steadfast supporter of my project, and today, we’re heading to our favorite place—Porteau Cove. It is a place that holds a special magic for us, a sanctuary where we can reconnect with nature, the universe, and ourselves. The mountains, the water, the trees, and the fresh, invigorating air all come together to create an atmosphere of peace and renewal.
As I start to get ready, I notice a pit in my stomach—a familiar sensation when something significant is about to happen. But alongside this nervousness, I feel a genuine sense of anticipation and excitement. I realize that I will walk through this feeling, embracing both the fear and the excitement. Just as I mentioned in my last blog post, it is now time to reconnect with spirit. I will turn on some calming and beautiful spiritual music to ground myself and set the tone for the day ahead.
Despite the joy I feel about seeing my friend and the anticipation of using my newly created Soulful Guidance Oracle Deck for a reading with her, there is a lingering nervousness within me. Perhaps it’s because I have spent so much time in isolation, fully immersed in creating something so personal. Or maybe it’s the natural fear that comes with stepping out of that creative cocoon and into the light of sharing your work with others.
I have always been a social person, someone who loves to connect and engage with the world around me. So, why do I feel this fear now? I realize it is not just nervousness; it is also excitement—two sides of the same coin. And I know that spending this day at Porteau Cove, surrounded by the beauty of nature and the companionship of my friend, will help me understand these feelings more deeply.
Being out in Mother Nature, by the water, is the perfect place to do a card reading. The serene environment naturally invites a deeper connection to spirit. We will start with a short meditation to ground ourselves, allowing the tranquil surroundings to center us. I plan to smudge both of us, clearing away any lingering cobwebs of doubt or fear, and creating a clear channel to be guided by the messages that the universe has for us.
One powerful moment I hope to share is the presence of my spirit animal, the eagle. In the past, the eagle has visited me in this sacred place, a symbol of guidance and confirmation that I am on the right path. The eagle’s appearance is always a profound reminder that I am supported by the universe and that my journey is aligned with my true purpose.
As I walk along the shore, breathe in the fresh, crisp air, and listen to the gentle whispers of the universe, I will take the time to be still and listen to the answers that nature provides. There’s a powerful energy in this place, a sense of renewal that I need right now.
Later, during the reading, I know that the cards will not just speak to Kim but also reveal insights for myself. Every time I read for others, I find that the messages often resonate with my own journey as well, reminding me that we are all interconnected and that the universe always finds a way to guide us, even through the voices we use to help others.
The weather is perfect—slightly overcast, warm as we transition into September. It is the kind of day that invites reflection and rebirth, a day to embrace the present moment fully.
This evening, after I return home and have had time to absorb the day’s experiences, I will sit down to reflect further. I sense that today is not just about reconnecting with a friend or enjoying the beauty of Porteau Cove; it’s also about embracing the rebirth of myself as I step into this new chapter of sharing my work with the world.
Love & gratitude,
Amandah K Tanner
