When You Are Always Trying, But Never Quite Blooming

 A soft space to rest, reflect, and reconnect with yourself. These notes are whispers — for when you are not sure what to do next, but you need to hear something real.

Sometimes, you just need someone to say: “You are right. This is hard. I get why this hurts.”

Not advice. Not a reframe. Not “look on the bright side.”

Just a hug in the form of words.

Because what no one sees is how long you have been trying.

You give ideas, energy, time, and presence. You cheer others on. You plant seeds in their gardens and celebrate their blooms. And you are proud — you are. But under that pride is a quiet ache.

Why do I always feel like I’m in third place, no matter how hard I try?

Why does something always seem to block my full bloom?

 Maybe you are not even sad — just worn out. You have been through seasons. You have reinvented, restarted, and stayed hopeful. And still, there is this invisible weight: I know I am gifted. I know I am meant for more. So why is it always just…almost?

You see others — maybe younger, maybe more resourced — finding clever ways to blend creativity with sustainability. You are happy for them. But something in you whispers, What about me? And then immediately, I should not feel this way.

But here is the truth:

You are not wrong for feeling what you feel.

You are not negative. You’re not ungrateful.

You are just deeply, deeply human.

Some seasons ask us to pause. To question. To sit with the truth that we are tired, not from doing too little, but from carrying too much for too long. Especially when it feels like we are always almost there.

And if nothing else:

Take one night to sit under the stars and whisper, “Help me see what is next.”

Not as a demand, but as a prayer.

You do not have to carry this all alone.

A Gentle Practice

For when you want to move from spinning to softening.

🌙 Reflect — Journal Prompts

Where in my life do I feel like I am always trying, but rarely arriving?

Who or what blooms because of me, and do I feel acknowledged in return?

If I stopped chasing “more,” what would I hope finds me instead

🫶 A Self-Check-In

Sit in a quiet space. Close your eyes. Breathe. Then ask yourself:

Am I tired from dreaming, or from not being seen?

🙏 A Prayer to Carry

Dear Spirit,

Help me know the difference between being still and being stuck.

Show me where my energy wants to go, and where I can rest without guilt.

Let me release the chase, and receive the clarity I need.

Remind me: I do not have to bloom fast — I just have to stay rooted.

I am listening.

I am open.

I am held.

Amen

Animal Insights: Discovering the Messages from Our Animal Companions

As we journey through life, animals often appear as gentle reminders of the profound connection we share with nature and the universe. In creating the Soulful Guidance Oracle 53-card deck, I felt a deep calling to encapsulate these messages, recognizing the invaluable lessons our pets and wildlife impart on us daily.

Why Animal Symbolism Matters

From the time we welcomed our Australian Shepherd, Brodie, into our family, we began to understand the depth of animal companionship. Brodie was a reactive dog, adopted at nine months old. Although he had not experienced physical abuse, he was emotionally neglected, overlooked by his previous family. This awareness deepened our bond with him, prompting us to create an environment where he could thrive, such as a spacious, fenced-in backyard that allowed him the freedom to play and explore without stress.

Animals embody unique qualities that symbolize lessons tailored to our personal journeys. By observing them closely, we can enhance our emotional intelligence and gain clarity during challenging times. For instance, when we notice a particular animal frequently appearing in our lives—be it a raccoon rummaging through the trash or a Stellar Jay calling from a tree—it's essential to pause and consider what they might be communicating.

Messages in Nature

Have you ever spotted a bird while sitting on your deck or going for a walk? Take a moment to acknowledge its presence. Many creatures, like eagles soaring high above or delicate dragonflies flitting about, carry spiritual messages that we often overlook. Bees, butterflies, and hummingbirds also serve as reminders of the beauty and transience of life. Each of these animals holds symbolic meaning, offering insight into our own lives if we take the time to reflect on their significance.

For example, seeing an eagle might represent strength and the ability to rise above challenges, while dragonflies often symbolize transformation and adaptability.

Reflecting and Journaling

As you contemplate the animals that enter your life, consider keeping a journal for reflection. Document your experiences, thoughts, and emotions related to these encounters. Over time, you may begin to uncover patterns and understand the importance of these animals in your journey. This practice not only fosters self-awareness but also encourages you to trust your intuition and follow what resonates in your heart without overthinking it.

Discovering Your Spirit Animal

We all have a spirit animal—an embodiment of the qualities and strengths we can draw upon in our lives. These animals serve as guides, providing messages that remind us everything is well or awakening us to be more conscious of our thoughts and surroundings. They can offer reassurance during challenging times or encourage us to take notice of our inner world.

To connect with your spirit animal, create a quiet space for reflection and meditation. Ask yourself which animals you feel a strong connection to or that you admire. This practice can unveil not only your spirit animal but also the lessons it brings to your life. Understanding your spirit animal can deepen your sense of self and enhance your personal growth journey.

Encouragement to Connect

If you have questions or wish to share your experiences, please feel free to reach out to me. I invite you to visit our store for the Soulful Guidance Oracle Deck, journals, and more that can assist you on your journey and in everyday life.

A Question to Reflect On

Next time you meet an animal—whether it’s your loyal pet or a wild creature crossing your path—pause and consider: What qualities is this animal reflecting to me? How can I bring more of that into my life?

Our Beloved Brodie

Embracing Wisdom and Defying the Concept of Retirement

In recent years, I’ve been reflecting on aging and the societal expectations that come with it. One question keeps arising: why do we need the term “retirement” in our lives? The traditional idea of retiring at 65 seems outdated, especially as we live longer, healthier lives. What was once deemed the “retirement age” should now be a personal choice, free from societal pressure.

This reflection was triggered by a recent conversation with an old neighbor. They asked, “So, when is Marke going to retire?” My immediate response was, “He is not going to retire—he loves his job.” But later, I realized I should have let him answer. My reaction stemmed from my own struggles with embracing my age and the new chapter I began nearly two years ago.

As I approach my 66th birthday, I feel vibrant and full of life. My heart is overflowing with things to share, and I have never felt more connected to my purpose. Since launching Soulful Guidance last March, I’ve created my first Oracle deck and guidebook, along with a 30-day planner and journal. The growth I have experienced in these two years surpasses anything I have felt in the last decade.

This journey has taught me that our later years can be some of the most fulfilling if we allow them to be. It took time for me to embrace who I am at this stage of life. For too long, I felt embarrassed about my age, keeping it hidden. But as my products are now ready for the market, I’ve started shedding that fear. I’m beginning to shine brightly and proudly, realizing that reaching this age is a privilege that not everyone gets to experience.

Interestingly, as I write these blogs, I notice a pattern: they often reflect the Oracle cards I’ve created, almost as if they guide me to share their wisdom in a practical, everyday context. Oracle cards are known for offering insights into the past, present, and future, guiding people to understand their place in life. Yet, many seek these tools for answers outside themselves, hoping to hear what they want rather than what they need to acknowledge.

The truth is, Oracle cards—especially Soulful Guidance Oracle cards—are much more than that. They are a guiding system, helping us become consciously aware of where we are in our lives, what we need to let go of, and what we need to embrace. They show us the path we are already on, highlight our choices, and encourage us to step into our true potential.

As we age, particularly after reaching our mid-50s, life offers a unique opportunity to reinvent ourselves. The roadmap of our lives shifts every decade, and with age, these shifts become more about internal growth than external achievements. We reach a point where we can choose how to spend our time—whether creating something new, engaging in self-care, traveling, or simply enjoying life’s pleasures. For some, this might mean a new career or passion project; for others, it’s about enjoying life on their own terms, pursuing hobbies, spending time with family, or giving back in meaningful ways.

I have come to realize that I am an empath, and the more I give and help others, the more alive I feel. As my birthday approached, my husband and son asked me what I wanted as a gift, and my answer was simple: I wanted to spend time with them, share a meal, and enjoy each other’s company. This realization highlights the gift I have been given—the ability to connect with others and bring light into their lives. Everyone has their unique gift; it’s about tapping into it, recognizing its value, and letting it flourish at the right time.

So, as I continue on this journey, I understand that age is not a limitation but a gateway to deeper wisdom and fulfillment. Soulful Guidance Oracle cards embody this belief, offering guidance that is both practical and profound, encouraging each of us to embrace who we are and the path we are on.

Reflective Question

 As you navigate your own journey, what gifts have you discovered within yourself? How might you embrace them more fully at this stage of your life?

Finding Flow and Renewal: Embracing the Journey of Self-Care

After my day at Porteau Cove with my girlfriend, I have had time to reflect on how seamlessly everything unfolded. The experience left a profound impact on me, shifting how I approach my work, my writing, and my connection with others. These last two blogs have shown me the importance of going deeper, not just for myself but for my readers and clients as well.

When I am in the flow, when the time is right for growth and new steps, it is incredible how quickly things can happen in my life. This experience reminded me to take the time to reflect and be aware of how this unfolds in our own lives.

As the evening progressed, I felt an overwhelming surge of energy, my heart wide open, ready to give and let everything pour out of me. Instead of stopping to wonder what the next day would bring, I dove into my courses, life, dreams, and blogging. I felt a powerful drive to help others open their hearts and minds to their potential and growth.

Reflecting on how my emotions and creativity were overflowing, I even felt the urge to burst into tears—tears of joy, excitement, relief, and newfound discovery. I had forgotten how vital it is to honor the time of discovery, to peel back the layers, to give my energy fully, and to truly listen to the messages and whispers that come to me. But I also realized that there comes a point when I need to stop, release, and rest.

It took me a couple of hours to accept this, but once I did, I let go and focused on self-care—resting, nourishing my body, walking in nature, and sitting by the ocean to recharge. I spent quality time with my husband, reminding myself that the relationships we cherish also need our attention and time.

By the second afternoon, I tested myself to see if I was ready to return to blogging and reconnect with Soulful Guidance. The answer came swiftly—no, not yet. I reminded myself that I would know when the time was right, and indeed, that moment came early the next morning. At 5:30 a.m., instead of fighting it or begging for another hour of sleep, I got up and started my day. By 10:00 a.m., I had accomplished what felt like a full day’s worth of work and chores, and then I went back out to reconnect with nature and recharge once again.

I took a moment from writing this blog to sit on our patio, close my eyes, and let the sun's warmth wash over me. The fresh ocean air, the serenity of the moment, all reminded me of the importance of self-care. I indulged in a bath with one of my special bath bombs, called "Blessings," lit a candle, and turned down the lights. I decided against music, craving the peace and quiet to be fully present with my thoughts. These small steps might seem insignificant, but they are essential. We often forget how crucial it is to take care of ourselves, regardless of what we are working on—whether it is a blog, spiritual work, or just everyday life.

As I reflect on this, I realize how much energy goes into mindful, conscious work. It is not a scattered, subconscious effort, but a deliberate, thoughtful process. Sitting in the sun reminded me that sometimes, even a few minutes of stillness can lead to a full day of recharging. This allows me to give more to others, to my next blog, and to my clients, friends, and family.

We are always evolving, changing, and growing. There are always moments of growth, often surprising ourselves with how far we have come when we are open to the possibilities. Writing this blog and taking the time to recharge has sparked the idea for my next blog, a reminder of how being in the flow and allowing stillness can lead to life’s miracles and surprises.

REFLECTIVE QUESTION

Reflect on the moments when you have felt completely in sync with your life, where everything seemed to align effortlessly. How can you create space for more of these moments, allowing both growth and stillness to guide your journey?

Love & Gratitude,

Amandah K Tanner

Embracing the Fear Within: A Journey of Reconnection and Renewal

As the creator of the Soulful Guidance Oracle Deck and Guidebook, I have poured my heart and soul into this project. It has been a journey of deep introspection, creativity, and solitude. But now, as I prepare to share my creation with the world, I find myself grappling with a mix of emotions—excitement and, yes, a touch of fear.

This morning, I am meeting a dear friend I have not seen since spring. She has been a steadfast supporter of my project, and today, we’re heading to our favorite place—Porteau Cove. It is a place that holds a special magic for us, a sanctuary where we can reconnect with nature, the universe, and ourselves. The mountains, the water, the trees, and the fresh, invigorating air all come together to create an atmosphere of peace and renewal.

As I start to get ready, I notice a pit in my stomach—a familiar sensation when something significant is about to happen. But alongside this nervousness, I feel a genuine sense of anticipation and excitement. I realize that I will walk through this feeling, embracing both the fear and the excitement. Just as I mentioned in my last blog post, it is now time to reconnect with spirit. I will turn on some calming and beautiful spiritual music to ground myself and set the tone for the day ahead.

Despite the joy I feel about seeing my friend and the anticipation of using my newly created Soulful Guidance Oracle Deck for a reading with her, there is a lingering nervousness within me. Perhaps it’s because I have spent so much time in isolation, fully immersed in creating something so personal. Or maybe it’s the natural fear that comes with stepping out of that creative cocoon and into the light of sharing your work with others.

I have always been a social person, someone who loves to connect and engage with the world around me. So, why do I feel this fear now? I realize it is not just nervousness; it is also excitement—two sides of the same coin. And I know that spending this day at Porteau Cove, surrounded by the beauty of nature and the companionship of my friend, will help me understand these feelings more deeply.

Being out in Mother Nature, by the water, is the perfect place to do a card reading. The serene environment naturally invites a deeper connection to spirit. We will start with a short meditation to ground ourselves, allowing the tranquil surroundings to center us. I plan to smudge both of us, clearing away any lingering cobwebs of doubt or fear, and creating a clear channel to be guided by the messages that the universe has for us.

One powerful moment I hope to share is the presence of my spirit animal, the eagle. In the past, the eagle has visited me in this sacred place, a symbol of guidance and confirmation that I am on the right path. The eagle’s appearance is always a profound reminder that I am supported by the universe and that my journey is aligned with my true purpose.

As I walk along the shore, breathe in the fresh, crisp air, and listen to the gentle whispers of the universe, I will take the time to be still and listen to the answers that nature provides. There’s a powerful energy in this place, a sense of renewal that I need right now.

Later, during the reading, I know that the cards will not just speak to Kim but also reveal insights for myself. Every time I read for others, I find that the messages often resonate with my own journey as well, reminding me that we are all interconnected and that the universe always finds a way to guide us, even through the voices we use to help others.

The weather is perfect—slightly overcast, warm as we transition into September. It is the kind of day that invites reflection and rebirth, a day to embrace the present moment fully.

This evening, after I return home and have had time to absorb the day’s experiences, I will sit down to reflect further. I sense that today is not just about reconnecting with a friend or enjoying the beauty of Porteau Cove; it’s also about embracing the rebirth of myself as I step into this new chapter of sharing my work with the world.

Love & gratitude,

Amandah K Tanner

Finding Joy in Unexpected Places: The Power of Music on Our Journey

As the creator of the Soulful Guidance Oracle Deck, 30-Day Planner, and Journal, my mission has always been to help others navigate their life journeys, uncover their purpose, and craft the best life they can envision. I have often emphasized the importance of spiritual practices—meditation, introspection, and listening to soothing music—to connect with our inner selves. These tools have been invaluable in guiding others and myself towards a deeper understanding of our paths.

But last evening, I was reminded of something equally profound: the power of music to ignite our spirits in unexpected ways.

My husband and I went to see The Pointer Sisters perform—a group I have not listened to in almost 40 years. Their music transported me back in time, but more importantly, it awakened something in me that I had not felt in a while. As they sang, I felt an overwhelming urge to move, to dance, to come alive in a way that was both joyful and liberating.

The Pointer Sisters, once a quartet, now perform with just one of the original sisters, alongside her daughter and granddaughter. Watching them keep the family legacy alive, I realized that music, much like the tools I create, has a unique ability to bring people together and transcend boundaries. It does not matter what spiritual practices you follow, what beliefs you hold—there is a time and place for everything. Music, in particular, can be a powerful force in our lives, helping us connect with our bodies, our souls, and each other in ways that are sometimes unexpected but always beautiful.

This experience made me rethink how we connect with our purpose and our journey. While meditation and introspection are vital, there is also something to be said for the joy of movement, the thrill of a beat that makes your heart sing and your spirit soar. Sometimes, the most profound connections to our purpose come from the simplest pleasures—like dancing to a song that lights up your soul.

I had not anticipated feeling this way after a concert, but it was a powerful reminder that life’s journey is not just about quiet reflection. It is also about embracing moments of pure joy, letting yourself be carried by the rhythm of life, and allowing your spirit to move in ways that bring you happiness.

So, as you walk your own path, remember to make space for these moments of joy. Listen to the music that moves you, dance when your body urges you to, and allow yourself to experience the full spectrum of life’s beauty. This too is a form of spiritual practice, one that is just as vital as the quiet moments of meditation and reflection.

Because, in the end, life is about balance—finding harmony between the stillness within and the vibrant energy that surrounds us.

I will leave you with this thought: What makes your heart sing? What brings you joy? Embrace it, and let it guide you on your journey.

Love & gratitude,

Amandah K Tanner